second in a series of Tamara's ramblings

Well here ya go, its been several weeks since I last posted here. I was going to try and post regularly but just like everything else in my life lately, it's a hit or miss. I am really excited though since I last wrote here, I have been able to talk to both of my granddaughters on the webcam. Technology is amazing, even though I am so far away, I get a chance to see and hear them just like I was in the room with them. It really makes my day to be able to talk to each of them. I sure miss being there but this is really the next best thing and what is better is that they can see me so they know who I am not just some picture on a wall. Another thing I am excited about is Richard is finally getting on the path to adulthood. He got a job working at Kathy's Holiday Oil where Heather just started working. I hope this works out for him and he got a cute little puppy he named Mary Jane. Steve is getting ready to leave town again for Vegas. I have mixed feelings about it. I really want him to go and do well and get this Fresh Idea's franchise going. I think it would be good for his self esteem to make these sells and get back into making money. He has been such a "buyer" for so long, I would love to see him put his salesman cap back on and get back into selling. He has sold a car or two so I am happy about that. It will be hard to have him gone though. It's lonely when he is out of town. Our business is really slow right now so this will be a good thing, plus when he is on the road he tends to spend less money. As for me, I am trying to loose some of this weight that I have put on the past 5 years, so I was working out daily at the gym. The last two weeks I have had this horrible flu and haven't gone. I am really mad at myself, so this week I am going to be committed to going again. Well I am getting busy today which is nice for a change so I will leave you with this thought. You are the one in charge of your own destiny. If you want something to happen, you are the only one that can do it. Don't wait for someone else to do it for you, it wont happen. Find a dream and make yourself a big goal and then make small checkpoints to reach that goal. So for now this is another segment of Tamara's ramblings!

Tamara's Tidbits

Okay, I have been reading my kids blogs for a while and Heather has urged me to get on here and create my own. So here goes. First of all I just wanted to say how proud I am of each one of my kids and the way they are trying to get their lives in order. I see how each one of them has grown into a wonderful adult. Yes even Richard is getting better. He has a lot of growing to do but he is also starting to try, which for him is a huge advancement.

So my goal is to try and post something meaningful here at least once a week. Reflecting on my life, I realized that yesterday would have been Brad and my 29th anniversary. CRAP, II"M OLD, but wait, I couldn't have been married that long cuz, Im barely 30...hee hee! Anyway I am grateful for the wonderful years I shared with Brad and the important lessons that he taught me. I hope that I can use those better in my life. I am also grateful that I found Steve and as we look forward to our 4th anniversary I know that he is the one I am suppose to be with the second half of my life. I really think that we were meant to find each other because in the short time we have been together I have learned many lessons from him too.
I know that I am a stronger woman than I had ever given myself credit for and that I have a lot more compassion than I thought. Anyway these are my first ramblings since I have never done anything like this before, but I thought it was a great way to keep a journal since I am terrible at writing my thoughts and feelings down. So for those of you who read this, BARE WITH ME!